Day by day I break,
Piece by piece,
Bit by bit,
But I hold on,
Hold on to faith,
That it’s gonna be alright someday,
I don’t know when, but I’ll smile too one day.
Every new presence
A glimmer of hope.
Every old memory
A stab of pain,
Of bent minds and broken hearts
Of sleepless nights and unspoken thoughts.
Endless, bottomless pits of pain.
Rancid, rotten tears as rain.
And I hold on,
Hold on to faith,
That it’s gonna be alright someday,
I don’t know when, but I’ll smile too one day.
People come and leave, as if
I’m a pathway, with crowds to weave
Half lonely, with everyone around
Half lost, nowhere to be found,
Where am I, who am I, I ask
Finding myself, the toughest of tasks
Acting happy is easier than
Talking about where it all began.
Every time I close my eyes,
I see a version of me
Too fucking tired
To move, to get up, to fix me
Of the pain, of the betrayal
Of the disappointment in myself.
Is it too much to ask for, I wonder.
If I’ve ventured far yonder.
Never to be looked for,
Never to be found.
Isn’t that what life’s about?
Faking things with everyone around?
Talk to me, they say
It’s time to move on and be strong they say
How do I tell them, I know it all.
It’s just the strength, that’s not left in me.
None at all.
How do I tell them, what I show them is fake?
A different kind of courage is all it takes.
Here I sit, on a wintery morning
Deep inside me, a relentless mourning
And yes, sometimes I feel like giving up but
Mark my words, I’ll come out strong and fitter.
For hope, has a way of breaking you down
And building you better, yet bitter.
But then, always has there been such a day
That all the emotions come out to play
Leaving me an empty husk, troubled,
Sad, scared from dawn till dusk.
Yet I hold on,
Hold on to faith,
That it’s gonna be alright someday,
I don’t know when, but I’ll smile too one day.
